People Building

Through our own stupidity we decide to live out a weekly rota, involving whatever and whoever we  wish. I have come to the conclusion that association is always bias, when a drinker thinks of drinking its more than the average man or women would drink, he's thinking in terms of volume and strength. These behaviours are common with people who use drugs or eat excessively day in day out. Do we know better? if all you've ever done is throw the shutters down when you're in a difficult situation its not going to be likely you'll find a propper solution.

Life is about discovery, love and experience just as much as its about loss, pain and misery the scales tip in either favour, based on consequence you are responsible for your own actions. Somebody dies, somebody is born, somebody goes to prison somebody is freed, somebody finds love somebody looses it. The world is full of people tending to hidden wounds, or manifestations of some kind of illness just ever-expanding till its undeniably a big problem. So what do we need to get along in the world? I'm not talking about wealth or success just finding your place with others in such a messed up world?

Behaviour determines almost everything, a person's behaviour can make you loose or gain something, everyone judges on behaviour, sometimes simple and fair assumptions, judgements on intelligence, shared interests, kindness or how people in any cut throat business thinks like how easily a person can be manipulated or used to their own social advantage. I thought of hermits, I've met a few, they're the hardest people to understand. I find they disregard conversation and avoid any physical contact. They also adopt strange ideologies and obsessive interests, in either conspiracy theories, fundamentalist beliefs, online RPGs and obscure underground hippie music. After speaking to one agoraphobe I realised how out of place he seemed to be and how he preferred being as far away from people as possible. I obviously have the tendency to communicate quite well with dissociative people as I spent many of my younger years cooked up in a room listening to Radiohead and writing dark prose.  I realised that his disgust in people was centered around his own narcissim, no one particularly found him interesting or compelling in conversation cause he didn't enjoy socialising and so never got good at it. But I also got the feeling he enjoyed alienating people, making them feel uncomfortable, or maybe he just learned to enjoy it? As for the psychology I think the main motive would be to avoid dissapointment and avoid receiving that kind of treatment from other people, avoiding ego depletion.

(And my point?) I think all people are afraid, they're afraid of what will happen on a daily basis, yes some more than others but its because of this common fear that we are begrudged of the oppurtunity. We don't end up doing what we think about doing most days. And what is stopping us? ourselves, we miss the oppurtunities some people would literally kill to have. We could do anything we could go anywhere but we won't get anywhere with iron in the spokes.